Ring out the Old and Ring in the New

In a twinkling of an eye, the year 2005 is over. As I reminisce back on the time when I was desperately preparing to leave home, I cannot believe I have been here in Hawaii for close to nine months now. It has been a long time.

January 11th, 2005 will mark the beginning of a new chapter of my life, so will it mark the beginning of a new winter semester. New classes, with new people to meet. This semester I hope to be able to be a different person. I hope to be happier. I like to have a smile on my face.

These are the classes I have enrolled for this coming semester, and they are,

Japanese 102 - 4 credits
English 201 – 3 credits
Math 106 – 4 credits
Book of Mormon – 2 credits
Eternal Marriage – 2 credits
Women’s Choir – 1 credit

I am having second thoughts about enrolling for the Eternal Marriage class. I met a girl this morning, and I overheard that she and her fiancé will be taking the very same Eternal Marriage class with me. I do NOT want that to happen. The last time she looked at me, her face glowing with happiness, told me she got engaged to her boyfriend. I should be happy for her but I cannot bring myself to do that. Somehow I feel she is just doing so to antagonize me. She just seem to treat her fiancé as if it is an arm candy. Why do I have such a thought about her? It scares me.

I want to have a boyfriend too. I am tired of being alone. I should throw myself into my studies and get a 4.0 GPA this semester. I am not happy now, and so what can I do? I hate this feeling… I feel miserable, just whenever I see that smug look of hers smeared across her countenance.